*Grumbles* Mind...PLEASE SHADDUP u__u;

I'm having a self critical kind of day today.

Heaven knows why. I just feel grumpy :S

Guess I have a case of the blahs o__o

I find myself sighing when I gaze upon myself in the mirror. I am irritated/frustrated with my appearance. I know I shouldn't be...but I gaze upon my bloated midsection and sigh quite a bit these days...I'm ashamed at how vain I am .///.; I'm thankful my bf compliments me and makes sure to remind me that I'm beautiful just the way I am...but I just feel unappealing...and having to wait things out for the first while before my body starts to slowly go back to what it once was...is hella frustrating.

I know it took a 3 months shy of a year to create my new little bundle of joy, so as much as I could slim down quicker, I'm gonna have to deal with the fact that it's going to be awhile before I get back down to normal. I guess with my impending part in my bro's little sister's wedding reception, I am a tad anxious...I want to look decent by her wedding date so I can wear her choice of dress elegantly, not bloated and frumpy .__.;.

Ah well.