*yawns and stretches*

I have no concept of time. The hours tend to blur together when you're sleep deprived @w@; The only way I am aware of the time right now is the handle time feature in the bottom righthand corner of the monitor screen lol.

I've been battling my hormones the past few days...I find that I can't help myself...I'm SO sensitive...my bf is taking it in stride and being VERY understanding, bless his heart...he knows I am a prisoner to my own emotions and will be for a good while...he just reassures me and gives me love and praise and help whenever I need it, which is often these days lol

Now logically I know I can't do a lot atm...but that doesn't stop me from being frustrated by it. I have been told by everyone that I NEED to sleep when the baby sleeps, but I also have 2 other children to tend to...granted they are quite self sufficient, I do not want them to feel that their needs aren't as important as the babies' needs. Thankfully they are VERY understanding and due to me explaining everything and the situation that we're dealing with due to the baby being demanding of my time, they don't get resentful...bless their hearts. My bf and I are doing our best to remind them how thankful we are for all of their help and that we still want to engage with them when it comes to school and how they're feeling and how they're handling the significant changes that have taken place...I never want them to think that they are less important...and by the both of us working together as a united team to ensure they feel loved contiously, I think they know we value their pressence in our lives :D

*sighs* I think I just need to be kinder to myself...and accept the things I may not want to accept...because although I am frustrated, I realize that my son is going to be small only for a little while...and soon he will be as independant as my daughters...so I may as well enjoy the fact that I am needed <3