hehe...this meme/quiz/whatever is...well amusing, to me anyway :P

I got this from a facebook buddy...and normally I find most of these types of quizes...well...redundant...BUT...this one I don't mind sharing and embellishing on, you poor unfortunate souls lol.

Apparently...if I manage to get more then 30, I am in need of some indepth counseling O___O;. If my score is more then 20, I'm the paranoid freak your 'rents warned you about :O. If I get 11-20, I am what constitutes as 'normal' (AHAHAHAHAHAHA *gigglesnorts*...yeahhh). If I somehow manage to get 10 or less, I'm fearless and should adorn a spandex head to toe outfit with matching cape and fight crime. And if for some reason I don't click on ANYTHING...then well, from what the rules state, I'm bloodywell full of crap. Hmm.

*rubs hands together* LET'S DO THIS. ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLRIGHT!

I fear ...



[] Black people <--- O___O; I've never expressed fear at one's skin pigment but to each their own I suppose..? o.o

[] the dark

[] staying single forever

[] being a parent

[] being in front of others

[] open spaces

[] closed places

[] heights

[] dogs *large ones*

[] birds

[] fish

[] spiders <--- ONLY if they're huge!

[] flowers or other plants

[x] Fire

[] deep water

[x] Snakes <--- ESPECIALLY if they're in a plane...if you can't catch the reference, may I ask you to watch Snakes on a plane, 'nuff said. :P

[] silk <--- this made me laugh. I shouldn't though...but I did. I'm going to hell. lol

[] the ocean

[x] failure

[] success

[x] thunder/lightning <--- yes, I admit it, I AM a big baby, I don't deny it. Ever since my close encounters with lightning I tend to get a tad ansy when I see it

[] frogs/toads

[] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad

[] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom

[] rats

[] jumping from high places <--- now why in HELL would I WANT to jump from a high place to begin with..? O 3o

[] bugs

[] rain

[] wind

[x] crossing hanging bridges <---I hope this day never comes...seen WAYYY too many movies with this sort of scenario, eep!

[x] death <--- this one is tricky...I don't fear it persay, but I fear how my loved ones will deal without me.

[] heaven

[] being robbed/mugged/raped <--- since I have been victim to a couple of these, I can UNDERSTAND the fear...but I choose not to live by that said fear.

[] falling <--- I'm accident prone so this no longer scares me, I'm embraced my inner klutz lol

[] clowns

[] dolls

[x] large crowds of people <--- claustrophobia ftw! Small spaces do not incite fear, but large groups of people SO do :C

[] men (the old pedo ones.)<--- they creep me the hell out but I don't fear them.

[] women <--- hehe sometimes! But it's not a constant fear, so no 'x' for you!

[] having great responsibilities

[] doctors

[] dentists

[] tornadoes

[] hurricanes

[x] incurable diseases

[] sharks

[] Friday the 13th

[] ghosts

[] poverty

[] Halloween

[] school

[] trains

[] odd numbers

[] even numbers

[x] being alone

[x] becoming blind

[x] becoming deaf

[] growing up

[] creepy noises in the night

[] not accomplishing my dreams/goals

[] needles

[] blood



Now to tally this bad boy...let's see...my total is: 12!

Sooo...I am 'normal'. That IS to laugh, it really is...I could go on about the term normal and abnormal but eh, why bother :P

The list that was given is apparently a list of "COMMON" fears...uh silk? "Oh this luxurious fabric gives me the heeby geebies, give me burlap and I find instant comfort!" lol *smacks self* I need to stop being judgemental...I'm SURE there is a perfectly logical reason to fear silk...I just...haven't...found it...yet O__O

This quiz reminds me of that show...that is called...aww hell TJ, give yer head a smack, make those brain cells bend to your will! Uh...well I'm at a loss as to what the hell the name of the show is, but it is about unusual fears/odd habits & cravings & dependancies....watch, I'll remember the name of that blasted show in a couple of days from now lol.

ANYway...the program showcases people's obsessions or how they find comfort in things they really shouldn't....and some of them I find really bizarre...guess that 'silk' option in the quiz has me thinking...is that a COMMON fear? Am I missing out on some level for NOT fearing this? Who knows. I just know that after watching the show a few times and seeing how people, who were affected by early childhood trauma, now have a fear that confuses many and how they choose to deal with said fear boggles their minds even more.

When I was younger I probably would have laughed at ALL of them for fearing things I think shouldn't be feared...but...now that I'm older I guess I have more of a sympathetic heart...and although I MAY not understand why they fear what they fear or deal with it the way they do...I feel badly that they are paralyzed by their fear and hold onto their vice of coping as strongly as they do. I hope I NEVER have such a debilitating fear *shudders the thought* D: DX


I also commend these people for speaking out about something that can cause them ridicule...most people would rather appear fearless so they don't have to deal with the constant teasing that can occur when they're honest...but how can someone overcome obstacles without some sort of guidance/support system? I think feeling alone in any difficult situation is what pushes people over the edge...but when you have people that care and will not laugh at you for what they consider your shortcomings...you definitely feel more at ease and feel you can overcome anything that comes your way.

But I still argue that I'm the farthest thing from being 'normal'. Normal is overrated...can't I be exceptional instead? :P

Coffee and an idea for release

Wow that bit about 'release' sounded much naughtier than anticipated *ahem* my apologies hehe :P I suppose not everyone has that naughty/tongue and cheek virtue to them and thought nothing about my word usage, but I tend to find words more amusing than they should be, and I will probably find hilarity in this blog where others may not...which suits me just fine considering this is my blog and no one elses...I guess I'm just giving fair warning to my ability to find amusement at myself/read into things that others may pass by nonchalantly lol.

I'm TJ, a lass hailing from Ontario, got a awesome fella and two lil girls and a wee one on the way...and I'm a blogger from way back. I don't know why I should feel any pride from this, but I do get a bit smug knowing that back in my heyday I could say I was part of something a tad bigger than myself...not overly IMPORTANT or grand...but nonetheless it was something I enjoyed doing.

I used to own a domain, then a sub domain, and finally relented to having a livejournal, which I hardly find a reason to write in...possibly due to the fact that my reader audience via my friends list *for the MOST part, not all, not all..* are people I can no longer relate to. It comes with the territory...people come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime...some I've stuck close to, others I can no longer find interest reading their drivel...nothing wrong with that, but I need a fresh audience, or someone who actually ENJOYS reading my banter AND *le gasp!* commenting on my posts. But just to establish right here and now, I am by NO means trying to win the "OMGOSH I AM TEH UBER POPULAR, PPL EVERWHERES LURRRRVES MEEE" award...meh, too much energy to waste. I've SEEN journal owners with minions who attack anyone who DARE not agree with the webmaster, and to me...that's pretty silly...we all have opinions and what not, if someone posts something idiotic or rude, I'd rather point and laugh at their display of idiocy by myself, not have someone else come to my rescue. Perhaps I'm too stubborn to give in to their possible taunts or low blows...but I find amusement at letting THEM showcase their own stupidity for everyone to see instead of getting into that situation where I have to defend myself to people who don't know me or just like being judgemental asshats. Don't get me wrong though, ALWAYS up for a well thought out civil/respectful debate, but for those who know about 'trolls' *people who go out of their way to antagonize you to the point of madness...yer welcome* you should never feed into them.

I just realized my kettle isn't turned on...oh for the love of *gives myself a facepalm in hopes that it manages to make my brain function better than it does and goes to put it on* and there we go, only a moment or two now. I'm surprised I even managed to arise to THIS occasion WITHOUT first gulping down a few mouthfuls of coffee...guess deep down I've been wanting to start my writing sessions again and today was the day my lazy arse decided to embark on this verbal adventure, whether I was fully awake or not! lol

Part of me wonders why I feel the need to be...well, read! All I know is that these days I've been so unbearably hormonal/emotional due to being preggers, and with my cell phone not being up due to the ever increasing financial demands I have, I NEED an outlet severely, otherwise I will mostly likely explode from all the thoughts I have stored away and no where to let them loose. Although this entry may seem like useless rambling...it's quite theraputic...feels good to be able to talk about whatever the fuck I'd like to without feeling that no one gives a damn or interruption *I'd like to mention here that not everyone has made me feel they could care less about my feelings/opinions...don't want anyone assuming that I lumpsum everyone into one big group of selfishness, that's SO not the case*.

I really couldn't tell you what this whole blog will be about...I just hope that with the creation of this blog, I'll have a chance for inner calm/peace in the dark recesses that is my brain matter, and that perhaps...I can reach out to people that I couldn't before...too soon to figure that out now, but hey, nothing wrong with being optimistic! ;D

Alright, time to embrace the pure awesomeness...that is...coffee made by me *so blessed picky! lol* Enjoy the day my loverlies, hope it treats you well! <3