First day back at school for my girlies :D

Wow...just wow. My daughters are in grade 5 & 6 this year. Time certainly does fly by...but oh, how I wish it wouldn't fly by so fast! D:

That's not to say I do not enjoy watching them growing and watching the changes that take place...I do find enjoyment in their ever developing personalities...seeing how much they've grown, how independant they're becoming....but still...still I wish they were small...especially with the impending birth of my 3rd child coming soon. Ah, here I go getting teary eyed again, damn sentimental heart.

This song that I'm about to share...is a glimpse into how I'm feeling. To feel both joy and sadness as I watch my daughters grow and become young ladies...what a mixed bag that is, heh. This video clip is from Mama Mia...I love Meryl Streep's voice...she sings to my heart...so without further adieu, here is Slipping Through My Fingers from Mama Mia



Abba - Slipping Through My Fingers
Schoolbag in hand, she leaves home in the early morning
waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile
I watch her go with a surge of that well known sadness
and and I have to sit down for a while
the feeling that I'm losing her forever
and without really entering her world
I'm glad whenever I can share her laughter
that funny little girl

Slipping through my fingers all the time
I try to capture every minute
the feeling in it slipping through my fingers all the time
do I really see what's in her mind
each time I think I'm close to knowing
she keeps on growing
slipping through my fingers all the time

Sleep in our eyes, her and me at the breakfast table
barely awake I let precious time go by
then when she's gone, there's that odd melancholyc feeling
and a sense of guilt I can't deny
what happened to the wonderful adventures
the places I had planned for us to go
well, some of that we did, but most we didn't
and why, I just don't know

Slipping through my fingers all the time
I try to capture every minute
the feeling in it slipping through my fingers all the time
do I really see what's in her mind
each time I think I'm close to knowing
she keeps on growing slipping through my fingers all the time
sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture
and save it from the funny tricks of time(slipping through my fingers)

Slipping through my fingers all the time

Schoolbag in hand, she leaves home in the early morning
waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile...
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Enjoy the time that you share with your little ones ladies and gents...for soon...they will be full grown and will leave the nest that you so lovingly created for them. Time is so precious...so make the most of it...don't let that time go to waste with "We'll do that later" and "We have plenty of time to go do _____"...enjoy them while you still can, for they grow so fast...it's heartbreaking :'C

My bf and how we met

Well in my previous entry I said NOT to listen to facebook buddies suggestions as to what to write...

But I was surprised when my fella suggested I write about him...and I figured I'd go with it ;D

I met my bf unexpectedly a year ago. I was in the middle of ending a relationship I was currently in...it has been getting worse with every week, and I was at the point of swearing off guys all together. I was visiting my friend down the street and had a child free night, so she suggested we go to a nearby bar down the street. I vowed that night that all I wanted was to be noticed...I wasn't trying to find anyone, or flirt or anything of the sort...I just needed to be noticed...to be appreciated on some level. So we dolled ourselves up and headed out for a change of scenery.

Well apparently he noticed me before I did *didn't have my specs on, can't see long distances* and as we were walking through the parking lot, my friend announced that I had gotten my wish. I had no idea what she was talking about, but she noticed him and how, even though he was surrounded by a crowd of females, his eyes were on me as we made our way to the entrance of the bar and how he removed himself from all the ladies and sat down on one of the outside chairs and gazed upon me with a slight smile on his face.

I thought I had noticed a tat on his arm but it was in fact his sleeve (lol) but he went to show off his tats and how/when he got them and I shared my stories with him about mine. Soon my friend and I ventured inside and he invited us to his table. I started digging in my purse to get myself a beer but he told me it was alright and offered me beer throughout the night, even though I kept insisting that I had my own money and could afford my own...I don't like to mooch, but I think he appreciated me not just assuming that he was going to pay for my drinks.

He promptly moved his chair next to mine and we sat side by side...I remember his thigh touching mine under the table, and how he never seemed to smile at anyone...except for me. We just chatted merrily together, talking about this and that and the other...but every good night comes to a close and before I left, I walked up to him and said "So handsome, are you going to give me yer number or what?" and grinned at him, which caused him to stutter a bit and ask the bartender for a piece of paper and a pen. He jotted it down and handed it over to me and told me to call him whenever I wanted.

Well, we got to know eachother as the days passed...he was working at that bar one night and asked me to come on out. When he saw me he grumbled about how he wished he didn't have to work that night lol. That night it seemed like a lot of people wanted to test me...some of his exes tried to grab his attention and a few other guys tried to see if they could convince me to go out with them instead of him...but I wasn't worried about the ladies or the guys...my attention was on him and vice versa. I really liked the vibe I got from him...he didn't try to rush things or get me to do things that I wasn't ready to do...it was so calm...he was unlike anyone I had ever met...and I liked it, a lot.

Apparently I scared him though lol...but in a good way he kept on assuring me. Seems like I was unlike anyone he had ever met. I didn't want to get my hopes up too early...but I let him know that dating me was a package deal...I had already had my share with guys who only wanted to date me but didn't seem overly interested in my daughters. Sure, they thought I was a wonderful mother and thought my girls were sweet/well behaved...but they never showed initiative regarding involving my girls...but when I introduced my daughters to him...he seemed so genuinely happy to meet them and seemed to enjoy their pressence as much as I do...so I soon fell myself falling for him.

It seemed mutual...soon he was always visiting, talking/playing with my girls, sitting down with me and talking/cuddling...I enjoyed watching him interact with my girls and enjoying being with them, and I loved how he didn't MIND spending his free time with me...it was a welcome change from what I was used to with past boyfriends. He was everything I was looking for...and at long last, I found him...and I couldn't be happier :D.

And now...one year later...we're both expecting a lil bundle of joy. With all relationships there are ups and downs, but we decided from the get go that being bitchy at eachother was counter productive and that the best way to get along/fix any bump that came up in the road was to be respectful and talk it out, which has worked marvelously. He's an amazing guy...he CHOSE to be with us, to embrace the quieter life...to enjoy being a family man...and I am forever thankful that out of all the ladies he could be with, he's decided that there is only room in his heart for my girls and I. I love this man to bits, and I look forward to spending the rest of my life with him and our ever growing family.

I love you so much my darling, thank you for completing me <3